I see you, sensitive woman. You have a sense you were *born* for a more meaningful purpose (perhaps as a healer, teacher or guide, though that feels terrifying) - yet you often feel ‘trapped’ in the suffocating ‘cage’ of your mundane life, feeling ’different’ to others. You ignore your boundaries and people-please - or, when you've had enough of that, maybe you rebel and fight to meet your needs (a cycle that exhausts you).
You’ve spent a lifetime suppressing and shaming who you are, your raw emotions and true voice - your magic - as ‘too much’, yet there’s this deeper wild expression that’s *howling* to be let out and liberated. You’re a secret ‘wild one’ who shames - or even fears - your inner wild and deeply sensitive energy, your ‘difference’ - and you want to heal yourself of the fear of ‘judgement’ and reclaim your authentic soul’s truth...
I see you - you’re feeling called to a bigger, wilder, more authentic version of you, yet you feel all the fears of what others will think of you - so, until now, you’ve shamed your wild self (perhaps not even seeing yourself as ‘wild’), keeping yourself small and playing the exhausting role of ‘Good Girl’ - just in case you’re judged as ‘too much’, rejected, abandoned and outcast - from the world you feel safe in - for being your true self. For your ‘difference’. Maybe you sometimes swing into ‘Rebel’, feeling you have to protect and guard your energy - and shaming yourself for it. Perhaps you’ve a deeper sense that you’re here to be a ‘healer’ or ‘guide’ of some kind; you’ve awakened to something profound that has had such an impact on your life and you’re thinking “I could one day make a difference with people” - yet at the moment, that feels terrifying, overwhelming and a million miles away - especially because you fear losing approval for being authentically you. That and you feel your ‘sensitivity’ leaves you with no energy left for anyone else. Becoming a healer feels like a deeper soul calling that you’re ‘too sensitive’ for - and one that also feels inconvenient and disruptive to your life.
Oh, I feel your heart, wild one.
I know how easy it is for us to loop around feeling excited about our gifts - yet scared to step into them because we fear “will people judge me (and my ‘difference’) as ‘weird’?” - and finding it difficult to even carve out the time to connect to ourselves and nourish our bodies, let alone becoming a healer - because we don’t know how to say ‘No’ to people without upsetting them, so we end up being ‘all things to everyone’, and running ourselves into the ground. We’ve spent a lifetime either running around putting our children or family before our own basic needs and feeling selfish if we choose to nurture ourselves, or we’ve been juggling all the balls at work - either way, occasionally, we feel so trapped and exhausted from not meeting our sensitive needs that we can’t hold our wild emotions and (sacred) rage in anymore, so we’ll explode with raw emotion that we then shame ourselves for - going back into hiding. We’re saying ‘Yes’ to everything we feel we ‘should’ do - and ‘No’ to everything that every fiber of our soul yearns for.
One thing’s for sure though: you’d like to heal this cycle and reclaim your true, raw, authentic ‘wild’ expression for yourself, first, so you can be who you were born to be (even if it is ‘inconvenient’).
I so deeply feel you - and I’m here to show you a new way to heal yourself - to help you connect to the innate, inner ‘mama She-Wolf’ in you, who knows how to tenderly hear your true soul and open to expressing your true wild self - yet in a really vulnerable, nurturing, loving way that models healing self-honouring to your loved ones - and doesn’t require you to ‘snarl and snap,’ or ‘run away’ and hide in the woods. I see your inner wild, raw beauty and truth - a Feminine wildness that, once reactivated, will have you begin to feel more able to *honour* yourself and your inner boundaries - feeling more energised - so you can reclaim your soul’s deeper truth and purpose. I see your possibility to learn to love your inner little girl in her fear of judgment for your true wild expression, so that you can begin to take those tender steps into your gifts, at your soul’s pace. In fact, it’s Archetypal Lupa (She-Wolf) who will show you the way and help you begin to heal yourself - in our upcoming 5 week journey of wild soul reclamation…
This is for you if...
🖤 you are a woman who wants to free yourself from the cage of a dull, grey, unfulfilling life - you feel trapped in busy chaos and drama, constantly putting out fires - and you know you want to create life differently, yet fear judgment and rejection if you allow yourself to embrace your true ‘wildness’ (and perhaps even open to your vision)
🖤 you ‘feel’ more than others - you’re easily overwhelmed by a keen sensitivity (to noises, lights, odours, touch, electricity, people, or ‘other worlds’) and no matter how hard you try to contain your feelings and be more ‘positive’, you often explode in a meltdown of wild, anxious emotions, which you shame yourself for
🖤 you struggle to honour your needs and run around people-pleasing at the expense of your energy, feeling helpless, emotional and, resentful - or, if you ever do honour your needs, you feel selfish, shameful and guilty - because you fear judgement and what people will think of you if you say ‘No’ and choose your soul. The fear of being ‘outcast’ and having to be ‘all things to everyone’ is depleting you, and having you feel disconnected from your true purpose
🖤 you tend to avoid your own truth, distracting and numbing your problems with things like work, tv, food, alcohol, drugs, scrolling social media or other ‘quick fixes’ - OR you’re deeply emotional with a hyper-vigilant mind, and predict future problems, trying to solve them - all whilst wearing a ‘Good Girl’ mask (yet you long to just be authentically you, or even discover who that is)
🖤 you feel disconnected from your body, which whispers to you with low energy and nervous exhaustion - or perhaps shouts with fatigue, tension, pain, numbness, womb symptoms or mysterious disorders - and you’ve a sense there’s a hidden underlying pattern to heal (you’ve outsourced your healing to ‘quick fixes’ in the past and now you’d like to learn to heal yourself)
🖤 you have a sense that you’re here for something *wilder* - something more meaningful, heart-led and purposeful. You suspect you’ve ‘gifts’ as a healer, teacher, light-worker or guide (whether you want to use them for yourself or others); but you fear people might judge your ‘difference’ and ‘wildness’ as ‘weird’. You long to reclaim your inner wildness, discover yourself more fully and own your true, natural expression and voice so you can step into your full soul potential.
Maybe it’s time to:
Reclaim
your Wildness from love.
Honour
your truth.
Nurture
your soul.
your soul.
I feel your heart because who I’ve described above was once me. If you’re anything like me, I used to fear expressing my authentic truth (whether my clothing and what I wore, or asking for my deeply sensitive needs to be met, sharing my voice, or even just choosing what I longed for in my life) - thinking that others would ‘judge’ or even ‘reject’ me. My core wound was the fear of ‘abandonment’ - just as it often can be, for other healers, too. And because of this, I spent my whole life ‘contorting’ myself into boxes and trying to ‘fit into’ a mundane society that didn’t actually ‘suit’ my true, sensitive, wild, magical essence. I played the role of ‘Good Girl’, living up to others’ expectations - getting the ‘perfect’ Masters’ degree with Distinction in Business, having the ‘perfect’ career as a Brand Manager, and even marrying the ‘right’ person. Deep down, through living my life like this, I was deeply unfulfilled, disconnected and unhappy - and my sensitive nerves (which I’d judged as ‘too much’) were ‘on edge’ to say the least. Eventually I got fed up of playing the ‘Good Girl’ and swung to the other end of the pole and became a bit of a ‘Rebel’, though that was exhausting and I burned out.
I didn’t see that I had been born into a world which valued ‘taming’ and ‘domestication’ over inner ‘wildness’ (truth); a world in which us sensitive, magical, wild ones don’t really ‘fit’.
I’d always felt a deep longing to become a healer, and at this point, having burned out, I stepped into the journey - but I later got frustrated because, although I spent over a decade training in all the ‘quick fix’ healing methods, I had never really fully created ‘success’. I still felt the deep fear of my ‘difference’ to others being ‘judged’ as ‘weird’, and wasn’t meeting my needs and truly healing my patterns of burn out and people-pleasing. I didn't really even know who I was or what I was here for.
Until I worked with ‘Lupa’ (She Wolf) as an Archetypal Remedy…
Here’s my Point of View...
Many women take this fear of being ‘judged’ and assume that it means that they should ‘give up’ - yet it doesn’t mean this at all - ‘Approval’ fear is a normal part of the journey of opening to your soul purpose. All this really means is there’s still some personal healing reclamation of your ‘wildness’ to do to become the healer you long to be (whether you plan to heal yourself or others).
What I learned is that becoming a healer is just that: a *becoming*. There are some ‘healer wounds’ we need to learn how to self-heal along the way; one of which is the reclamation of our inner wildness.
And Archetypal Lupa (‘She-Wolf’) has just the remedy.
Archetypal Lupa was the remedy that helped me to begin to tenderly reclaim the lost (shamed) parts of my authentic, sensitive soul - the parts that had felt ‘different’ to others - to discover who I really was, to honour myself, my needs and inner boundaries, and my natural desires, with deep love, vulnerability and nurturing.
Prior to that journey, because I’d not healed my fear of ‘judgement’ and losing ‘approval’, this personal wound was not only showing up in my personal life, in the way I’d hide and shame my own deep needs as a sensitive soul or suppress and shame the raw, messy parts of myself, but it was also translating into my work as a healer. I wasn’t fully able to ‘open’ to my gifts and possibility - I couldn't see my vision, or ‘express’ my unique gifts (Archetypal Remedy) into the world - because I had fears of sharing my true, vulnerable, wild self. I feared that people thought I was ‘weird’, and that women would run a mile from me if I shared what I really was here for (oh hello, ‘Secret Witch’!). It wasn’t until I went on a journey of the ‘personal’ healing reclamation of my ‘wild soul’ that I began to be able to fully step into opening to my gifts, discover what I was *truly* here for (before I reclaimed my wild, I just ‘thought’ I knew what I was here for) and truly make the impact with others I longed for in my heart.
In working with the reclamation of my authentic expression with a trusted Soul Guide of mine, I learned to really honour my soul (even in her inconvenient nudges), hear my wild No, and meet my basic needs, hear my wild Yes, to speak my raw, messy truth from a place of vulnerability, to share my voice to express my truth and my unique gifts in the world - all from a place of deep love, nurture and honouring. And the beauty of that was that I didn’t have to run away to the woods and obliterate my life to create it all - or even radically rebel against everyone in my family; I went tenderly, step by step, following each wild breadcrumb from soul.
I realised that I’d been working with the energetic remedy of ‘Archetypal Lupa’ (She-Wolf) - and working with her more consciously helped me share my sensitive (and neurodivergent) soul, fully and vulnerably - not just in my personal relationships with family, my lover, and my friends, but also in my working relationships with clients. Reclaiming my ‘inner wild’ (and deepening my relationship to the natural world with it) - totally transformed my life and my business - and also made me a role model to my baby girl for how to express our natural truth. Having healed this for myself to a deep level (though don't mistake this for my work being ‘done’, we’re always journeying), I began to see the same patterns showing up for other sensitive women who were here for ‘more’ and began to work with She-Wolf with them; and this work is what became one of the foundational Archetypal Remedies of my Archetypal Apothecary healing modality, which now offers the path I needed back then - guiding women into the 3 steps of Self-Healing, Discovery and Expression of their gifts required to heal themselves and become a healer (for themselves or others). This path has been created to save you the time, energy and money it cost me (over a decade and £90,000) so that you can become a healer in just 3 years.
One of the fears that came up for me in this journey was that of losing connection with those I loved, and didn’t want to ‘lose’ - the fear of losing approval and therefore love; the fear of ‘what will happen if I truly honour my sensitive, wild truth’? I was scared of She Wolf’s howl and bite - and she does have one, she’s wild Feminine; yet, she’s also deeply nurturing in a motherly way - she is a symbol of the protective mama to her cubs, and therefore the one who will ‘reparent’ and self-mother our inner child. What I found was that the more I learned to honour my wild, sensitive, messy, raw truth, the more the world adapted to meet me. I found a deeper sense of self-connection, family really began to lovingly honour my needs as I did, and I began to open more fully to honouring that I had intuitive healing gifts and also magnetise aligned clients - all by being the full and true expression of my soul and my heart.
I suspect, if you’re like me, learning to howl your wildness, illuminate your ‘inner No’ and claim your desires likely feels both deeply aligned - AND terrifying and inconvenient (She-Wolf can bring some deep resistance - I resisted the idea of being ‘wild’ - it wasn't a label I would have given myself - yet somewhere within I knew I was being called). You’re not alone - sensitive (magical) women tend to (innocently) fear their raw truth - and I’m here to hold you as you tenderly journey into healing and reclaiming your wild soul, and harness it to heal yourself and open to your gifts.
It’s helpful to remember this: you wouldn’t feel a call to She-Wolf if you weren’t *born* here to be a sensitive wild one and free yourself from conditioned ‘taming’ - *and* until we honour our deep inner wild ‘No,’ it means we can’t fully say a radiant, devotional ‘Yes’ to our soul’s deeper purpose as a healer, teacher or guide…
Imagine 3 Months From Now... Come on a Journey With Me...
Imagine 3 months from now. You’re feeling more connected to your inner wild body, her rhythms and cycles, you’ve begun to connect to the ‘outer wild’ in nature, and you're choosing into a regular ritual of meeting yourself (your wild soul) more deeply (even amidst the ‘inconvenience’ of it with your demands of daily life). Maybe you’ve ditched your ‘chemical-filled’ products for wilder natural ones - or perhaps you’re running wild, naked and free, howling under the light of the Full Moon (if that’s what your wild self would choose).
Most importantly, though - however your own unique ‘wild’ soul wants to be embodied and expressed - you’re learning to know yourself a bit better and welcome *all* the previously ‘shamed’ and ‘different’ parts of yourself, tending your sensitive nervous system and loving yourself deeply enough to hear your own wild, raw, messy emotions and the deeper, wild longings of your body, despite the demands of mundane life. You’re listening to and feeling more connected to your deeper inner truth and a sense of who you really are beyond the domestication and taming. You’ve illuminated for yourself some of your wild needs that are calling to be honoured and expressed so you can feel energised and ‘topped up’. You’re aware of some of the deeper underlying fears that are stopping you from asking for your needs to be met, and that have kept you people-pleasing in the past, so that you are able to love yourself in those old patterns - and begin to open to choosing differently - into wild, nurturing self-honouring. Perhaps you’re even sharing vulnerably with your partner or family about what your true sensitive needs are, loving yourself in the messiness of that. You might be creating a team of deeper support around you. You’ll be choosing to carve out more time for yourself. You might even be leaning into opening to ‘admit’ you have magical gifts that you desire to step into. You’ll most definitely be tenderly beginning to honouring the deeper calls of your soul. If you’re further down the ‘healer’ path (which isn't a requirement, this is for any sensitive woman who longs to heal herself), you might begin to reveal more about your true purpose, or be leaning into expressing yourself more truthfully and from integrity in your business - perhaps you’re showing up and speaking your wild message with deeper integrity on your favourite podcasts, or sharing your message at events, or working more intimately with 1:1 clients, or sharing the radical truth that has been in your heart for ages on social media, with deep love. Either way, wherever you are in your journey, you have a much deeper sense of your own truth - and you’re beginning to love and welcome your raw, messy wildness.
This is what She-Wolf helped me create - even though at one point it felt impossible to me, too.
If you’re resonating with this - perhaps you’re feeling ‘truthbumps’, or you’re nodding along like “yes, yes, this is me”, or perhaps you’re experiencing synchronicities calling you this way (hello She-Wolf showing up everywhere!) - then it’s likely your soul is calling you to the tender next steps of opening to reclaiming your inner wild truth. Likewise, if you’re instead feeling deep resistance, then know this: soul often calls to us in less than desirable and glamorous ways, so this, too, is just as much a call as resonance is…
Is something stirring in your body, calling you deeper? If so, it might be time to activate your inner apothecary and reclaim your wildness. Read on…
Your Journey with ‘Lupa’ (Archetypal She-Wolf)
Our 5 week journey with Archetypal Remedy, ‘Lupa’ (She-Wolf) - in which you will be guided to channel the Archetypal Remedy for your own self-healing - is the initiation into your inner wildness. The energetic remedy we will be working with is actually the remedy of ‘Lac lupinum’ - which is actually “Wolf Mother’s Milk” - she is one of our ‘Matridonal Queendom’ Remedies, which means she offers the ‘gifts of the Mother’. Whilst she is wild, she has the fierce unconditional love of a mama wolf, nurturing her cubs, which gives you a feel for the Feminine “wildness from love” that is contained in this remedy.
To give you an idea of her remedy, Lupa was ‘planned’ in our schedule for August because she ‘logically’ suits that particular ‘season’, but she made it deeply clear to me - through signs, synchronicities and resistance - that she wanted to be honoured NOW; despite the huge inconvenience to our Archetypal Apothecary schedule. She lovingly howled at me, letting me know she wanted to be birthed immediately - and, despite my attempts to ‘tame’ her demands and make her wait, packing her into an ‘Autumnal’ box, I knew she wasn’t going to let me dishonour her wisdom - and neither was my body. I knew it was time - I could feel it in my bones. And so, here we are… Thoroughly inconvenient, yet deeply aligned with my wild soul.
Lupa offers the journey into opening to unconditionally loving and welcoming *all* the wild parts of you that want to express - including your (once shamed) raw, messy, inconvenient truth, your inner boundaries and your wild heart. Lac lupinum reveals a place beyond the ‘Good Girl’ or the ‘Rebel’ compulsion where we can start to lovingly and courageously open to the full expression of our souls. She will call you into her ‘motherly’ energetic of (self/soul) nurture and honouring of your deep needs as a sensitive woman, helping you begin to illuminate the wounding patterns around ‘approval,’ ‘judgment’ and ‘abandonment’ that stop you from aligning with your soul purpose. She will reveal where you’re being called to love *all* of your wild self as unconditionally as a protective She-Wolf mother would with her cubs. She invites you home into communion with your instinctual signals, your emotions, and the alchemy of truth - she’s the birther of deep intimacy that has a woman begin to move from feeling on the ‘edge’ of society like a ‘lone wolf’, to deeper connection with her wolf-pack. She will guide you home into starting to nurture your body and her cyclical rhythms, so you can feel ‘topped up’ enough to begin tenderly taking the next aligned actions towards birthing your soul vision - honouring the wildness of soul that has been locked away in your heart, so you no longer feel trapped in the mundanity you’ve felt contained in.
Within a circle of women, we’ll journey together exploring and creating around these themes:
nurturing self-mothering
radical body honouring
reclamation of wild soul truth from love
The unique Archetypal Apothecary path guides you in transmissions of the Archetypal Remedy, ‘Lupa’ (She Wolf), harnessing energy healing, self-illumination, embodiment practices, nervous system tending, inner child tending, magical initiation, and visioning - in your own home and in the wild.
Based on the Universal law and healing principle, “similia similibus” (like cures like), Archetypal She-Wolf is a remedy that calls you from feeling trapped and contained in a mundane life that doesn’t suit your sensitive needs, helping you start to heal your fears of ‘judgement,’ ‘rejection’ and ‘losing approval’ and reclaim your inner wildness (whether that’s loving your ‘difference’, honouring your inner boundaries, expressing your true needs, or owning your true purpose as a healer), from a place of unconditional love for everyone. She offers the tender steps into reclamation of your wild, raw, true expression.
We gather in circle on Thursdays, online via Zoom for 5 weeks. I’m creating a group container in this way to provide a much more accessible way to work with me than my 1:1 fees allow, and making it possible for anyone to join globally.
It’s a potent healing space, where you’ll be held lovingly - and, perhaps for the first time in your life you’ll begin to understand the phrase “all is welcome”. There’s no ‘sharing’ required from you in the live circles, but there will also be a private community group which is a beautiful and alchemical space for you to share with sisters along the journey.
You’ll Receive:
1 x 90 minute live Opening Ceremony (via Zoom) for Archetypal Remedy dosing, transmission and healing initiation
Weekly invitations (enquiries, rituals and embodiment practices) to engage with at home and in the wild
2 x 75 minute live ‘teaching’ circles for integration support
Q&A opportunities
Transmissions from Nicole to deepen the journey
Full integration support and holding from Nicole in the group, for 5 weeks, for anything that arises to be healed
1 x 75 minute Closing Ceremony to honour and share wisdom and learning from your journey
Sisterhood - a global coven of magical sisters sharing deep work - these go way deeper than your average ‘muggle’ group, and most of the integration happens in this space
Lifetime access to all replays and group alchemy
You’ll Become a Woman Who Is:
🐺 cultivating a deeper sense of connection to the soft animal of your wild body and the deep intuitive wisdom held in your ancient bones, so you can be guided by her and welcome your body’s (sometimes inconvenient) calls - beginning to heal physically and reclaim energy and vitality
🐺 welcoming home the ‘wilder’ parts of yourself - that you’d once rejected - including your feeling of being ‘different’, your wild emotions, your wild ‘No’, your sensitive needs and deeper desires - and all other aspects of yourself that you’ve ‘shamed’, ‘tamed’ and ‘domesticated’ due to fear of being outcast as the ‘lone wolf’
🐺 starting to illuminate where you’ve not even been ‘seeing’ your own needs - or setting ‘inner boundaries’ to ensure you can meet your needs - whether physical, emotional, mental, spiritual or soul - because of the fear of fully honouring your wild ‘No’ - so you can be in alignment with your own wild rhythms
🐺 learning to heal deeper underlying fears of ‘judgement’, ‘rejection’, ‘abandonment’ and losing ‘approval’ - so that you can begin to allow yourself to hear the deeper wild calls of your soul - your authentic natural truth that has been lying dormant within and wants to express from love
🐺 beginning to feel you can open to your possibility as a healer, teacher or guide - even if people *do* judge you as ‘weird’; you’ll begin to see the gift in owning that, for those who need your particular unique remedy.
In other words, you’ll have begun the tender healing journey into radical self-honouring, deep soul nurturing and reclamation of your wild Feminine soul EXPRESSION (FROM LOVE) so you can feel nourished as you take aligned-action towards your meaningful purpose as a healer, teacher or guide.
This is a fit for you if you:
are a sensitive woman who wants to stop ‘fixing’ and lovingly open to your power and the possibility to heal yourself
are longing for an authentic, soul-paced journey to learn how to lovingly reclaim your wild truth (and you want to own your responsibility to do that)
will devote to watching the replay of the live circles within 48 hours (recommended maximum) so you can keep at a soul-aligned pace with the journey
are ready to choose to create a small amount of time for yourself (recommended 30 minutes per day) to devote to ongoing weekly invitations (enquiries, practices and rituals) at your soul’s pace - even when that feels ‘inconvenient’
are willing to look in the mirror at sometimes difficult-to-see underlying patterns that arise to be seen around your power, and receive full support - including powerful, loving reflections of truth that may at times feel uncomfortable
feel a call to a life of more powerful meaning and impact - perhaps as a healer, teacher or guide, even if that feels terrifying (though you may also not know this specifically - all sensitive souls are welcome)
are willing to honour the sacredness of the journey, by engaging (in whatever way feels aligned and comfortable to you)
This is not a fit for you if you:
want to keep outsourcing your power to ‘quick fixes’ - I won’t be healing you, because we can only heal ourselves
you don’t want to create a small amount of space for yourself each day to dive into the deep work in the invitations - enquiries, practices, rituals
you aren’t here look deeply in the mirror at your wounds or to learn to open through your fears, elevate beyond feeling at the mercy of a mundane life and lovingly tend your nervous system and inner little girl
have other priorities that are currently higher than your self-healing (please choose this wholeheartedly) and won’t choose to watch the replays within 48 hours
want to rush the journey of becoming a healer and want to keep trying healing and marketing ‘quick fixes’ which diminish your true power
aren’t female - this is for women only because the work we will be doing is about becoming aware of and honouring different aspects of the Feminine, including biology, experiences, energetics and cycles specific to female bodies.
Commitment
Lupa is a powerful journey - a tender next step in your initiation. It will reveal and begin to heal things you’ve not previously opened to look at. Lupa is only for you if you’ll take responsibility for your power, walk into the fire and submit to initiation.
You will work live with one specific intention you’d like to transform - come with one in mind.
Next Live Circle Dates
Unfortunately, you have just missed this round of Lupa - but you might like to check out some of our other journeys and register interest in the next round of Lupa here:
Investment
5 weeks of soul initiation.
Investment of £333
NOTE: This is the only time I’ll be running ‘Lupa’ at this low investment - and for a while, as other Archetypes are calling to me to express next; so if you are called, don’t delay. Spaces are limited, so if you’d like to join please do honour that call sooner as these lower investment crucibles tend to fill fast (we enrolled for Lupa before it was even been released). My 1:1 fees begin at £3333, so this is an incredible opportunity to begin to walk the path at a much lower investment.
Begin
Can you hear the wild howl of your Feminine soul in your bones, Ancient one? It’s your time to reclaim the true purpose your soul was born for.
Will you honour that call, sweetheart?
Unfortunately, you have just missed the last round of Lupa - but you might like to check out some of our other journeys and register interest in the next round of Lupa here:
Hear Olivia’s Experience of Walking the Path...
What Other Women Say About the Path...
I've learned that I’m safe to be wild
“Wild expression is just being who I am, but I now feel safe with that. In my old stories, I felt very unsafe with being ‘wild’ - from my experiences of living with my ‘wild’ parents. I always felt ‘wrong’, accepted I was ‘too wild’ and ‘too shameful’. It made me feel like I had to barrier myself against wildness and against magic - and I've learned that I’m safe to be wild, safe to be magic. Safe to express it.” -
- Victoria Brown, Group Journey Participant and 1:1 Client
Lupa totally changed my life - I’m learning to Love myself No Matter What
“When we started Lupa, I was totally paralyzed in fear and shame - and while that fear and shame is still there, I am no longer completely paralyzed. I'm learning to love myself no matter what. Even if I feel ashamed, I'm learning that even if I didn't make all the ‘right’ choices, it's okay for me to love myself regardless - like completely. That's huge. I am allowing my feelings and learning to be in my body, listen to how she feels and be aware of what that might mean. It doesn't mean I have to change anything that second. It doesn't mean I have to judge myself. I was telling Nicole - because I'm working with her separately 1:1 as well, which I would highly recommend - the one thing she said that totally changed my life in Lupa was “Your body wants you to honor how she's feeling whether it's coming from wounding or love.” For the longest time I knew a lot of stuff was coming from wounding, so everything I would feel, I wouldn't trust; I thought, “if I can't trust it, I definitely can't honor it” and ignored myself. I'm realising that even if what I’m feeling is from wounding, if you can honor and be with it, you're learning. I've been so afraid my whole life to be unapologetically me - I was always in fear, and I never felt safe, never. I'm finally realizing this is a journey, and I am where I am. I’ve seen when we're completely vulnerably in our truth, this will be medicine - for the person who needs it, that will be the stepping stone for healing.”
— Alli Rohrer, Lupa Participant & 1:1 Client
Additional Words from Women About The Path...
“I revisited everything we've done during this Lupa crucible; the things I wrote down, all the inquiries we did, and I really felt into it again - into the journey Nicole has taken us on. And I'm so, so grateful. I can see how much has opened up for me. The whole energy of Mama She-Wolf being here for me, with me, for my little girl - this wild, furry, loving support that is here for me, and... I've seen how my little girl was so surprised at the beginning - like, ‘is this healing possible? I really don't know - I have always been the ‘good girl, behaving well, so is this really possible for me?’ But also the joy that came with it, like, ‘oh, yeah, I can play, I can show my real self.’ So I am so, so happy and so grateful and I'm so full of this whole journey. I’ve discovered this for myself, that my inner Mama She-Wolf is there for me, and she will be there for me always. I've really enjoyed the journey, being able to share what's on my heart, to share the pain, to share the joy, the excitement, to receive all my sisters’ loving comments - and of course, Nicole, your loving guidance in this. It's truly a blessing. I love you all very, very much, and thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you.” — Marion, Lupa participant
“I think the resistance to my gift was about expressing it - I had a lot of resistance and fear of judgment and ridicule in a public space, on social media or in a circle, especially where I am - there are a lot of people living ‘in boxes’. I was afraid to step out and be ‘alternative’ and ‘wild’ and ‘free’, so there was a lot of resistance from that perspective. It's definitely softened, and become more comfortable and I’m in my own skin with it now. There's still a journey to be walked - I guess that's normal as you ‘live into it’ more, the more that it unfolds and the more you express - but there was resistance. I had resistance going from ‘normal mama’ to a “Wild Mama Africa,” which is who I really feel I am and who I express and live in the world. Nicole really helped me connect more with that ‘Wild Mama’ inside me - and I'm starting to live and express that in the world now and help other women too. It’s exciting! I've started to express my gifts more in the world with other pregnant women, other wild mamas, just really helping them go deeper into themselves intuitively and unlearning everything that we've been conditioned to think about our bodies and about motherhood and pregnancy and birth. I've been grateful enough to walk that path with Nicole and experience it and live it myself - and now I am able to express that in the world, whereas I wasn't before. I didn't think my gift was anything ‘magic’ until Nicole really helped me see that it was magic.” — Tammy Godsall, 1:1 Client
“The Archetypal Remedies have helped me illuminate so much. I have to say, it's challenging, but they're very, very powerful and have helped me to heal, to see where I'm in shadow, they’ve helped me to see what my gifts are, and what my goal is. I have seen even more clearly recently that I have a gift of seeing patterns too, so I really resonate with them in that way. I can spot them myself - I'm starting to spot them in other people. Just having that Archetypal Remedy lens has been really powerful. The self-illumination, the deeper work, the shadow work, that has been a huge part of my healing journey because I had worked with a lot of other healing modalities before this path - and none of them took me as deep as this, so they didn't create the deep like lifelong healing that this path doing the much deeper self-illumination work of alchemy has.” — Olivia Roff, group journey participant and 1:1 Client
“I am so incredibly grateful for the magic of this journey. Difficult (like you said - more difficult than I expected) but so miraculous. There’s no going back! Thank you so much Nicole.” — AR, group journey participant
“Thank you, Nicole, for everything - your unwavering love is so healing always” — DB, Lupa participant
“Thank you for a deeply healing and beautiful journey, Nicole. The more I work with these remedies the more I believe in them, and Lupa has reached that place in me that felt unreachable, but I needed other remedies to be able to open enough for Lupa to reach there. My intention at the beginning was to create a greater sense of unconditional love, and until today I still saw that as something outside of me loving me. Now I have more of a sense of who I am finally being okay - and not just okay, perfect in my messy, hurt, wonderful, magical, beautiful truth. That’s more than I could ever have wished for. I have always unconsciously looked at others and made the assumption that how they are is ‘right’ and I was therefore ‘wrong’ in my most basic being. And it hurt, so much. But Lupa has shown me I can love and express my truth, take care of myself and meet my needs and be me. Thank you, I am deeply grateful.” — JT
“One of the things that was really powerful about working with Nicole was realising that I had an urge to go and rescue everyone else - I thought it was just something I ‘should’ do, and I’ve seen it’s okay to reclaim my wildness - and there is a way of doing that with love. If you’re considering this, don’t let the fear of the ‘Secret Witch’ put you off - see the Witch as a part of yourself that you don’t know yet - a part that can bring wonderful insights and healing.” — Group journey participant
The main benefits of working with Nicole were seeing the importance of tending to myself, acknowledging my soul and what it needs, how to connect to myself and the power of awareness - and the importance of not neglecting my soul anymore - I can’t keep pushing it away; it’s detrimental.” — Group journey participant
“During the program I was launching my own group program and I’d felt a lot of fear around launching that, and showing myself publicly - I’ve been public before, but this was another step and there was a lot of fear. The work we were doing with Nicole gave me the tools I needed to be able to work with that fear, rather than push through it - it was a very feminine way of being able to work with the fear and be able to use it to write the posts around the program I was promoting.” — Laura Hill, Group journey participant
“What you do is genius, Nicole. It's probably the best money I've ever spent. I'm really grateful you've given me the opportunity. Brilliant - thank you very much" — AH, Group journey participant
“Nicole is like a loving fast forward button to deep healing” — Group journey participant
“The one thing I would say I’ve taken away is that we all have this incredible power and magic within us. It's in you, it's in me, it's in all of us - and working with Nicole will open that door and unlock that and let it out for you to express in the world. And that's a gift that you'll give to the world - and it's why you're here: to use that beautiful power and magic. That's what you're *here* for. Let Nicole help you.” — Group journey participant
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Is your wild soul feeling the call?
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FAQ’s
Q: I can’t make the live sessions, can I still join?
A: The live sessions will be recorded and replays will be shared into the groups. They are transmission and teaching circles, rather than sharing circles (sharing goes deep in the group), so whilst there’s the invitation to join us live, it is optional. We do ask that you try and co-create a way to join us for the first live ceremony as it’s nice to gather everyone together and be connected, but it’s not a requirement if it’s a real challenge. We will also space the live sessions across different time zones, so that people can join live at some point.
Q: I’m a complete beginner to magic and I don’t know anything about the Archetypal Remedies or how they work - do I need to?
A: This journey is aimed at those taking the very tender first steps into the Archetypal Apothecary path, which means there are no prerequisites to know anything about magic - or the Archetypal Remedies - at all. There will likely be many women who know nothing about magical healing, but just feel a deep call from their soul to be with us, so you are completely welcome. This will be your first magical initiation. However, if you would like to geek out on the art and science and learn more, you can check out this event we hosted here, which dives into the “What, Why and How of Archetypal Remedies.”
Q: I love the feel of this program and am really called to it - but I’m used to a more spiritual path which says we don’t need to “do” anything - there seems to be a lot of ritual work or practices here. Is that a requirement?
A: Often my clients come from a spiritual ascension path, before they arrive here at the descent to soul. I myself have walked a spiritual path in my work with the Three Principles, and it was very helpful; yet we are here to co-create with soul. This means we are here to create magic here on earth, in our bodies - as that’s really the only place magic can be fully experienced. Our work in this path is that of embodiment - and magical practice and ritual is a hugely important part of that. Will you trust your Soul to be leading you where you need to go?
Q: I’ve done a lot of spiritual work that tells us we don’t need “healing” because it’s all ‘just thought’ - is this for me?
A: I hear you on this one - that was my path too, and it’s also largely where women who journey with me have been (many of them exploring spiritual ascension). It’s not really an either/or - it’s actually both - we co-create as spirit in a body, and this descent back to the body is really the next breadcrumb. Healing is really another word for ‘expansion’ - yet it can be misinterpreted for us needing ‘fixing’ (which we don’t). If we are rejecting ‘healing,’ we ignore the wounds held in our bodies and that leaves them creating unconsciously for us and stealing our focus, without us knowing. To truly create what we desire, we need to come back into our bodies and face these unconscious wounds and love them so that our focus can fully be towards love, spirit and truth. Ultimately, love is the healer, and as we learn to love the parts of ourselves that we have shamed, they no longer steal our focus, and we come back to wholeness and can harness our focus toward what we truly desire. These two podcast episodes will be serving for you - Episode 28 - Do We Need Healing with Dominic Scaffidi + Episode 20 - How to Harness your Focus to Create Intentional Magic with William Whitecloud.
Q: I’m not sure if I want to be a ‘healer, teacher or guide’ - I feel a bit of a call, but it terrifies me, and I’m not sure - is it for me?
A: Yes, this is absolutely for you - most women called to being a healer will feel a lot of fear when they first hear the call to a deeper purpose with their unique gifts, so it’s completely normal that this feels terrifying, and that you’re uncertain if that’s really your calling. This journey is for sensitive souls to heal themselves - and so when I use the word ‘healer’ I am also referring to women who want to learn how to become their own healer. My invitation is to come with an open heart and see what’s revealed as you journey - this is a journey of learning to soften and tend fear, and open to what your heart actually desires, so it’s perfect for where you are, and can be navigated at your soul’s own pace.
Q: I’m an experienced healer - I’ve already explored so many healing modalities - including homeopathy, or aromatherapy - but I’m still struggling to create a business in the world; how is this different to other healing, and is it for me?
A: Whilst some of my women are beginners to healing, it’s also really common that my women have journeyed with #allthehealing before arriving at my door, so this is a really powerful question. The Archetypal Apothecary path offers a totally unique Soul Map for women to heal, discover and express their gifts. Remedies aren’t just another modality or ‘thing to do’ - they offer a unique philosophy that guides women into deeper healing of the fears that are stopping them from expressing their gifts into the world. Our path initiates women into soul - aka the true science and art of deep healing - and it is likely that this will be the deepest work of your life yet. It is work that helps you to make conscious all that has previously been unconscious, which is rare in the ‘quick fix’ healing world (and why this path has been intentionally designed). Many of my women have explored other modalities and found them unhelpful in isolation (it’s not an either/or - it’s both) - because they lack the deep healing homeopathic, archetypal and energetic healing work that is integrated in this path to heal all of the trauma layers in the way of you being a healer in the world. And that’s really the key to why my women haven’t yet become healers and birthed their business. This deep healing of your healer wound will help you to begin this journey into actualising your soul purpose.
Q: Is this circle only for women?
Yes, this circle is for women only, because the work we will be doing is about becoming aware of and honouring different aspects of the Feminine, including biology, experiences, energetics and cycles that are specific to female bodies.
Q: My nervous system is already activated enough with fear - I’m not sure I’m ready for being triggered. And yet, I’m really called to this - is it for me?
A: This circle is intentionally designed to guide sensitive women through the most loving of healing - one of the most important principles of this path is love. You will be led by Nicole into learning to tend lovingly to your wounds, until you know deeply in your bones that all of you is welcome. The whole point of this is that your nervous system will learn that someone with power (aka you) has shown up with the loving tending it longs for.
Q: I am not sure I trust magic - I’m more logical and prefer scientific explanations for things, but I am still feeling drawn to this, but I’ve a preference for knowing “how” - is this for me?
A: This is perhaps one of the biggest paradoxes that many sensitive women hold; their simultaneous love for and hate of magic. There’s often a deep mistrust and rejection of magic in women who are here with magical gifts, whilst also being drawn to it, time and time again - I’ve been there, and know it well. Sensitive women will commonly completely deny their magic by going into more logical things and trying to ‘rationalise’ it, or explain it with science - and it’s all, ultimately, a way of innocently bypassing their unique gifts. The fact that you’re in this paradox suggests that you are a healing one - because usually there is some deep resistance when women are truly magical - and so it’s likely actually the very program you need. Will you trust your desire to lead?
Q: I’ve heard you talking about the ‘Secret Witch’ and I’ve real resistance to the idea of “being a “witch” - does this mean it isn’t for me?
A: It is so common for my women to have resistance to the idea of being a ‘Secret Witch’ because she’s a mirror for the parts of ourselves we fear - the way we work with these powerful Archetypal Remedies is that they activate hidden parts of our soul or psyche that we have kept hidden for so long. When we resonate with stories that activate us - like the Secret Witch - this can can create some resistance or triggering, because usually these parts of us want to stay hidden for the very reason that it keeps us safe to hide who we are. So, if you have resistance, it’s actually more likely that this is the exact healing you need to create your more meaningful life.
Q: I’m really called to this path but it feels really “unknown” and I’m a bit nervous to go there. How can I get over the fear of joining?
A: This is again such a common and welcome fear along this journey. The path of soul is not easy - and it is not for everyone - but you’ll know if it is calling you because you’ll begin to be activated in ways you’ve not felt before - and you may also begin to notice synchronicities calling to you. The only way to really overcome this is to offer yourself as much love as possible to the parts of you that want to ‘know’ the way. If you are sensing it is for you, then it likely is for you - and it will keep calling you until you answer. Can you offer yourself the love you need to choose it anyway?
Q: I don’t even know if wildness, magic or power are available to me- I have a sense my gifts are ‘too big’ for me - what if I’m the one person that it’s not possible for?
A: I think this is the question that pretty much all of my women feel applies to them; and this fear is so welcome. And still, I’ve never met a woman drawn to working with the Archetypal Apothecary who isn’t wild, magical and powerful (even though she likely doesn’t feel it). Usually there is simply some deeper fear about capability and worthiness that is in the way of you seeing your gifts. Paradoxically, this is the very work that Archetypal Apothecary healing modality guides you into seeing. The greatest paradox in the path of soul is that the wisdom we gain within the journey helps us to see the truth we feel we need to choose it; so the deeper invitation is to allow yourself to be courageous and choose to trust your heart to lead - this is the deep work here. The only ticket required to enter the gateway to this journey is hope for your possibility.
Q: Is sharing required in this program? I’m a bit nervous to share in front of other people.
A: I can almost guarantee that every woman joining this program will feel this fear of being seen and sharing. And, in our introductory journeys, the live circle element is more of a teaching circle, which will mean there is little sharing required - unless you have a question or long to share something in the space where you are invited to. There is a beautiful group for the sisterhood to connect deeper, where you can share as much of your heart as you long to - this is your journey and you choose how deeply you go and how much you offer of yourself (though you’ll get more from it if you do choose to share).
Q: I'm drawn to this but life is really busy and don't know how I'll fit it in to my schedule.
A: This is a common resistance of the women who have a deep call to this program, because it is ingrained in us by the world to put 'things to be done' first. And, if you’re feeling this, if anything it is actually even *more* of a confirmation that this journey will be especially deeply serving for you. Your own Archetypal Apothecary is calling to you because the wild part of your soul wants to be seen and wants you to create a whole new way of being in life. Will you choose to hear her?
Reach out if you’ve any more questions that will help you choose…
If you’re still unsure whether ‘Lupa’ can help you...
Oh my heart, if you’re still reading this far, I’m honouring you for still being here; and I can sense you have some understandable fears or reservations arising. Believe me, I know it’s feeling like a risk for you to choose into a journey like this - and you may be thinking “will this be worth it?” or “what if this is another thing that just doesn’t work?” or “can I really do this?” - or “what will others think if I allow myself to choose this, and I powerfully create healing transformation?” I want you to know, these are all such normal fears, and they’re so welcome in my space - and you’ll come to learn to love yourself in these, if it’s aligned for you to join us.
I’d love to know: if you’re still not sure, what is it you need to create from our journey together, in order for it to be worth choosing? Message me to let me know and we can explore if what you desire is possible in this group program…
If you’ve not already, I’d recommend you see our vast number of testimonials from other women above, and I invite you to check out some of the above FAQ’s, to help you see if your particular question is answered there.
Regarding my own experience, I’ve been guiding women in their healing journeys for a decade - and you don’t have to just take my word for it - our work with Archetypal Remedies has been featured in lots of press. Over the years, I’ve shared my voice as a leading specialist in both healing and mainstream press, including Soul and Spirit Magazine, Holistic Therapist Magazine, Kindred Spirit Magazine, Tiny Buddha blog, Yoga Magazine, Metro, Badass Woman’s hour radio, Natural Health Magazine, Oh Magazine, Wellbeing Magazine, True Health, Sivana East, MgGill Media and many others - and written educational pieces for holistic colleges, including leading homeopathic college the Centre for Homeopathic Education (CHE) in London and New York. I’ve also hosted events at leading holistic wellbeing festivals like Rest Fest, The Life Centre and More Yoga in London, sharing my keynote talks. I’m fully insured as a professional, qualified healer, and am a specialist Consultant for global healing organisations and suppliers, including Base Formula, for whom I regularly write educational blogs.
If you’re just beginning here, we also intentionally offer a Starter Pack which contains lots of great free resources - including an Illumination Workbook and free Taster Healing Journey with Archetypal Rosa, as well as links to our press features, blogs, podcasts and free workshops around ‘how’ the magical technology of the path works. I’d recommend you begin here as it is intentionally designed to help you begin the journey yourself and get a taster to see if you like our work. Check it out below…
Want a Taster? Begin with our Starter Pack, Illumination Workbook and Free Journey with Archetypal Rosa...
How to know if you’re ready to heal your soul & open to your healing gifts
- even if it’s terrifying
Want a Taster of Lupa herself? Watch the replay of our She-Wolf Taster Journey
HOW TO KNOW IF YOU’RE READY TO RECLAIM YOUR WILD SOUL’ AND HEALING GIFTS - EVEN IF YOU FEAR JUDGEMENT AND REJECTION
Watch the replay of our New Moon women’s ceremony and healing workshop with Feminine Archetypal Remedy, She-Wolf (Lupa)…
PS: To Recap...
To recap: in this journey, you’ll open to healing with Archetypal Remedy, Lupa (She Wolf), which will guide you into your Feminine body for radical self-honouring, deep soul nurturing and reclamation of your wild soul, so you can feel nourished (and heal feeling depleted) as you take aligned-action towards your truth and meaningful purpose as a healer, teacher or guide. It’s a step towards becoming a healer - for yourself or others. This journey is the result of over a decade of my experience as a healer, teacher and guide, and offers the path I *wish* I’d had so that I didn’t spend all the time, energy and money I did; all carefully and magically curated to guide you along your journey in the most loving way possible. This is a popular group program, which I won’t be running again for a while - and spaces are limited and expected to go quickly, so if you’re feeling the wild howl of soul, ensure you secure your space with us in circle.
Still Not Ready? That’s Okay...
I completely honour when it’s just not the aligned time for women to join - and it’s really important to me that women honour that for themselves, because we want you to join our programs and feel able to engage. I’d recommend tuning into your heart beyond the fear, and weighing up the costs and benefits of joining, in order to choose, and if it is not aligned just yet, then I’d recommend listening to our Secret Witch Show podcast which is full of gems for you to travel with yourself - you can check that out here (and join our Secret Witch Society on Facebook, to share with us too):
TERMS OF CONTRACT:
This requires a commitment to your soul, therefore payments are non-refundable.
