Aurum’s true healing power
"Often the time, energy, financial, spiritual investments of healing will look huge - yet it’s the (often invisible) costs of NOT HEALING that often go much deeper, to the bone."
~ Nicole Barton
I was feeling heartbroken the other day.
It might seem like a small thing, but I had the most beautiful deep earthly-green ancient victorian homeopathic medicine bottle, that I’d bought myself to honour and celebrate my rebirth of Archetypal Apothecary. It was deeply symbolic and meaningful to me, despite not costing a lot of money. I’d had a Rose in it, the entire journey with Archetypal Rosa recently, which felt symbolic of the Remedies being part of the bottle.
And my baby girl smashed it, whilst playing. Cue all the emotions around it being broken - anger, grief, applying meaning about what the symbolism was. I was raging inside, and sobbing, though I gave Lily a cuddle through my tears and told her it was all ok (thank goodness for this healing work).
My inner child instantly wanted to ‘fix’ it, but the right hand corner of it had shattered into tiny shards; it couldn’t be glued.
I sat with my emotions for a moment, trying my hardest to choose to open my heart; to see what I was being shown to me in this Material for Liberation (something that’s only been possible, since working with Archetypal Aurum - Gold as she shows us how to reclaim the gold in our darkness).
And I suddenly realised that I had recently met a woman, a few weeks ago, at an event, who practiced the Japanese art of ‘Kintsugi.’ I’d talked to her at the time, about how, despite her work being art, it was deeply ‘healing’ because of how it showed people how to relate to their brokenness and shame in a new way - I remembered I had invited her to own her work as a ‘healer’ (my point of view is that ‘healers’ come in all forms).
As I sat there in the bath, I realised that she could do the same for my bottle. She could love it back to wholeness, from its brokenness - as a symbol of part of the teachings of my path.
And if that’s not magical enough, here’s where it got even more magical…
A quick Google of ‘Kintsugi’ revealed to me that the way they restore broken ceramics and glass is with Gold (yes, Aurum).
I feel so emotional as I write this - because this symbolic bottle has gone from a bottle that represented my unique gifts with the Archetypal Remedies, to being a work of art that has been healed with one of the Remedies itself - Archetypal Aurum.
I asked for Clara’s support with restoring it, and told her the magical story, and it’s currently in its healing journey with 24 carat Gold.
I can’t tell you how magical that feels to me, to have a broken bottle, lovingly restored to the wholeness of its soul, with one of the very Remedies that I guide women into to alchemising and healing (loving) their own darkness and sense of ‘brokenness’ back into wholeness.
I just know that this was meant to be. My ancient remedy bottle is now a full representation of the art of true healing (loving back to soul wholeness).
Yet I wouldn’t have always seen it this way; part of Archetypal Aurum’s remedy is to help us begin to see, feel and know that the ‘bad’ things that feel to ‘break’ us are all part of our soul’s plan - all part of our healing liberation.
Aurum is here to show us that we can always reclaim our golden gifts in our wounds - which is important for healers, especially, because ‘like cures like’ - we have to heal ourselves and reclaim our gold from our deepest wound in order to help others who are similar to us to do to the same.
True healers don’t start out ‘healed’ and ‘whole’ - they come in, as “wounded healers,” often having to learn how to navigate a lot of darkness, to heal it for themselves so they can go on to heal others. This is why my point of view is that ‘becoming a healer is a becoming’.
This is exactly what Archetypal Aurum initiates us into - learning to love ourselves back home from the darkness and find the gold in our trauma, our wounds and reclaiming our power from them. It’s an initiation into owning the process of alchemy so that we can heal ourselves.
It’s the Remedy that helps us begin to see we have our own ‘inner apothecary’ of remedies to be harnessed for self-illumination, to reclaim the gift in the darkness.
And we are surrounded by darkness - we’re in winter, which makes it the perfect time of year to work with Aurum. I can feel her making herself known, through the signs and synchronicities like this one - I know Aurum is with me as I guide women into this journey. It feels perhaps the clearest sign of me being on the path my soul chose that I have ever received, and I’m so appreciative.
I know sensitive women have often spent lifetimes trying to ‘fix’ themselves before they arrive here - criticizing their own brokenness and searching for ‘quick fixes’ (sticky plasters like numbing with drugs, alcohol, social media, tv, or food, or even interacting with healing in ways that innocently expect them to heal us). I know that women will often innocently outsource their power to other healing (and marketing) ‘quick fixes’ - and that this rarely ‘works’ in the way they desire.
Because the real art is learning to love ourselves in our feelings of brokenness - to find the gold in it. The deep work is in reclaiming our own inner gold, just like the broken bottle. The real healing art is in learning to own our power to self-heal, discovering how to hold our inner little girl in all the things we feel have “broken” us and being able to tend ourselves and love ourselves back home, until we feel like ‘gold’. This is why ‘healing’ is Level 1 of my path - and why Aurum (Archetypal Gold) is one of the first few tender surface layer Archetypal Remedies I serve.
And there’s one thing to know here - in that HEALING isn’t a journey for ‘everyone’ (otherwise everyone would already be healed) - it does take courage, tenderness and love to even step in. Just like my journey with my ancient remedy bottle, healing is a journey that requires some level of commitment (which is part of Aurum’s remedy to learn). Making my bottle a work of art was what you could judge as ‘expensive’ in time, energy and money - something that some would have judged as ‘unnecessary’ and ridiculed me for not just throwing it away.
I spent 5x the amount I’d bought the bottle for, to heal it with 24 carat gold. It took me time, energy and effort to tenderly bubblewrap it, box it up and send it via the post. It took me loving communication with a magical woman who was healing it for me. It required loving devotion.
And yet, it is totally worth it for the symbolic, beautiful work of art that has deep meaning and story.
Often the time, energy, financial, spiritual investments of healing will look huge - yet it’s the (often invisible) costs of NOT HEALING that often go much deeper, to the bone.
My experience, and that of the women I’ve guided is that each time I make a powerful choice - a choice into my deep healing and soul alignment, over a ‘quick fix’ - I notice how I’m rewarded in all the ways.
It begins with taking the tender first steps into reclaiming our own gold from the darkness… The first step of owning our power to heal, rather than resorting to ‘quick fixes’. You’ll come to learn that, truly, ALL of you is so, so welcome here, my love.
Are you with us, sweetheart? Claim your space in circle with Archetypal Aurum (Gold) in January.
All my love,
if you've any questions, send me an email.
Nicole x
