Is it time to ‘re-mother’ yourself and reclaim the real you?
Heal yourself and open to your healing gifts…
‘And the real medicine is learning to love those aspects of ourselves back home, and welcome the parts of ourselves that we have shamed and judged and rejected (aka to ‘self-heal’). ’
- Nicole Barton
Hello, sensitive one,
Do you ever feel the deep fear and shame at the idea of peeling back your mask and revealing your authentic self? And does that stop you fully opening to your healing gifts? Perhaps you fear “what will my partner think? What will my friends think? What will my parents think, if I open to a more magical, meaningful purpose?”.
I so feel your heart, beauty - and I know how tender it can be to even open to a journey of reclaiming our true, authentic selves, when we’ve spent years ‘fitting in’.. Your scared heart is so welcome here.
I remember a time when I simultaneously deeply longed to follow the nudges of a deeper soul calling I had to a more meaningful purpose and life, yet deeply resisted opening to my gifts as a healer, because I felt that my deep sensitivity, my natural (‘woo’) self and my true emotions were ‘too much’ and would be rejected and shamed - by my family, friends or anyone who I told.
It showed up even in my personal life - I’d spent a good chunk of my life simply avoiding my fullness, learning as a young little girl that I would be rejected for ‘being me’, and having the deep intuition and affinity for nature and spirit that I had.
It felt triggering and exhausting in my body and nervous system to think about opening to my heart’s deeper purpose - I felt it was really unsafe to be my unapologetic, authentic self, and follow my deeper calling to help others.
It’s heartbreaking - and I know it so well. It’s as if we feel we are both ‘too much’ and also ‘not enough’ all at once.
My heart wants you to know there’s a tender opportunity in this, if we are willing to open to it softly, gently - and with a deep amount of love.
What I learned, as I journeyed with Archetypal Remedy Lupa (or ‘mama She-Wolf’ as I call her), is that the shame and fear of rejection that we feel from *others* is usually a mirror for all the places *we* have innocently shamed and rejected aspects of ourselves - revealing where parts of our souls have become fragmented from our wholeness. Parts of ourselves that became lost in our fear of what others would think of us.
And the real medicine is learning to love those aspects of ourselves back home, and welcome the parts of ourselves that we have shamed and judged and rejected (aka to ‘self-heal’).
Judgement or rejection from other people offers a mirror for us as to where we are being called to re-mother ourselves, and let all the true parts of ourselves be unconditionally welcomed home.
For OURSELVES, firstly. Not anyone else.
It’s time to welcome our full, natural true selves home - even if that’s beginning with learning to just hear our own inner voice and intuition and witness our own soul’s truth, for us.
Firstly, though let’s dispel a common myth about our ‘wildness’ and truth:
There’s really no need to ‘force’ and ‘push’ ourselves into showing up as a ‘bold,’ ‘bolshy,’ ‘unpredictable,’ ‘confronting’ ‘rebel,’ ‘obliterating’ our lives, either. She-Wolf gets bad press. Whilst she’s often been portrayed this way, rebellion is not her vibe; not really. She’s not ‘wildness’ as you’ve seen it modelled before.
She’s very definitely not ‘rebellious’ in the Archetypal Remedy form we are working with - which is the energetic remedy of ‘Lac lupinum’ - or She-Wolf Mama’s milk. Lac lupinum offers the tender, soft, self-nurturing, unconditionally loving healing reclamation of our wild truth from *love* - aka open-hearted vulnerability and unconditional love - helping us reclaim the parts of ourselves that felt abandoned as we learned to suppress and shame ourselves as little girls.
She’s the tender, soft-bellied, nurturing energetic of the fiercely loyal and protective Mama to her cubs; in other words, she will show us how to
TENDERLY *RE-MOTHER* OURSELVES -
Until our true expression, wild inner ‘No’ and wild ‘dreams’ begin to actually feel *welcome*.
Because if there’s one thing that Archetypal Lupa wants you to know, it’s that these wounds - these fears of judgement, disapproval and rejection, the shame, the fear of being outcast for simply being yourself - are really calls for unconditional love and deeper self-honouring. They’re calls for a welcoming of all parts of ourselves. They’re calls for us to learn to protect the parts of ourselves that longed for protection - yet didn’t receive it - as a little girl.
This is what I mean when I say it’s time to reclaim our Feminine ‘wildness from love’.
It means it’s time to reclaim our true expression, our true dreams to be healers, our true desires, our true inner No’s and boundaries - and the truth that is yet to be spoken or even revealed to our *own* hearts.
All the things that we have (until now) suppressed and shamed as ‘too much’ or ‘not enough’.
Perhaps it’s not yet time to reveal it to the rest of the world - but I suspect it could be time to reveal your inner wildness to yourself.
The good news is, that this ‘Motherly’ energetic means the ‘Rebel’ era is over - we don’t have to obliterate our lives and isolate ourselves in the woods, running away from and rejecting our family and friends in order to do it.
We can learn to gently, vulnerably and tenderly come home to the sanctuary of our true selves - and have the world come and meet us there.
She-Wolf’s first question is: where am I being called to love myself more deeply in my wild expression?
If you’re here to be a healer, often the tender first step is learning to heal our inner healer of this ‘wildness’ wound, so that we can begin to have the courage to open to our deeper purpose (and later to sharing our truth more widely and becoming a remedy for others).
I’ll be holding space for women to journey into the tender first steps with Mama She-Wolf in May - if you’re called to this loving, truthful energetic, then you can read more and claim your space in our women’s ceremony and circles below:
CLICK HERE TO CLAIM YOUR PLACE IN CIRCLE
Women are already claiming their spaces in this healing journey, and my feeling is that this journey will fill quickly, so if you’re being called, please do claim your space with us, or reach out sooner rather than later (our Early Bird investment also increases on the 4th April, too, and payment plans are available).
I’m also incredibly aware that, sometimes, the fear of rejection in sisterhood and our previous experiences of being outcast by other women can even stop us from taking aligned-action like joining our journey - so if you’re experiencing fear, yet feeling a mysterious call, please know you are so welcome to reply to me and I’ll help you see what’s coming up in the way of you choosing what’s aligned (whatever that might be, there’s no pressure to join or hard feelings if you don’t).
The deepest of love to you beauty - all of you is so welcome here, and I love you as you journey on.
All my love,
if you've any questions, send me an email.
Nicole x
