Dominatrix vs Submissive: Which Are You?

Anacardium is an energy of *identity*. She feels torn between the Angel on one shoulder and the Devil on the other. The Good Girl and the Rebel. The Submissive and the Dominatrix. And all are shadow polarity "personalities" that a Secret Witch knows well.
~ Nicole Barton

🖤🤍DOMINATRIX VS SUBMISSIVE: WHICH ARE YOU?! 🖤🤍

Soul is calling me, recently (amidst my pleas to go gently - oh God, please!😆 ) to places I never honestly EVER thought I'd be called to.

To the depths of hell and back - it feels. 🖤

I'm in a powerful portal that I've wanted to run away from. I've quite honestly never felt this edge of sharing my voice and it's requiring everything of me to keep loving myself through showing up and sharing what's coming alive.

In honesty, I'd stay in bed and *hide* if my dream self didn't know how to corner me in my sleep 😉😂🔥

It made perfect sense when more was revealed to me from spirit this week - because I've recently come to see that I'm here to dose the energy of ANACARDIUM.

Oh *hell, no* was my first response!

I'm not going to lie - her energy was not welcome. Because I've worked with her before and it was not pretty (imagine if you will, a Pastel Swan Nicole smashing half her plate cupboard on the floor in rage, nearly a decade ago when she realised she was living her life for approval).

For the archetypal fans amongst us (I mean, it's my body of work, so I'm 'in') let's call Anacardium the equivalent of our dark witch *Lillith*.

Her spirit came to me in a dream (I wasn't kidding about napping!).

I awoke from this dream with a vision of me as Anacardium with black leather (vegan, obvs), and a whip. And I was shown that the Dominatrix was calling me. This is edgy AF to share btw 😂

And to be honest, at least I *knew* it was Anacardium - not least because I've worked with her energy but because she had also appeared in another dream in which I was being called to serve her recently (the one where my soul guide asked me what remedy I was being called to in HER dream and I answered her in MY dream ✨🪄✨ ).

You see, Anacardium is an energy of *identity*. She feels torn between the Angel on one shoulder and the Devil on the other. The Good Girl and the Rebel. The Submissive and the Dominatrix. 🖤🪄

And all are shadow polarity "personalities" that a Secret Witch knows well.

For magical women - who are born to be Medicine Witches - the Witch Wound (fear of being judged, persecuted and killed for being her real self) has her:

🤍 Putting on a mask and pretending to be whoever fits in

🤍 Playing the good girl in case her full expression is abandoned

🤍 Denying sharing her true voice for fear of it being disliked

And then:

🖤 Getting fed up of being submissive and rebelling

🖤 Exploding with intense emotions that she's suppressed

🖤 Being a tyrant with her close family

Aka, she's swinging between the Angel and the Devil without realising there's a hidden choice:

She could CHOOSE to heal this childhood wound of rejection (it's all from trauma) and be HER TRUE SELF.

That's what Anacardium is calling me even more deeply into. And she's calling me to step into the fierce energy of my soul (with my leather and my whip 😉 ) to dose the powerful loving truth that:

🔥 HEALING YOURSELF IS A CHOICE

AND

🔥 BEING YOURSELF IS A CHOICE.

And Anacardium wants me to tell you it's our kinky shadows that have us not choosing that (the benefits of staying safe, in control and approved of).

Is that edgy to choose past? YES.

I can barely press 'post' these days without having to tend my nervous system first. I didn't show up fully enough before to meet my edge about that.

But showing up as myself in this fear is absolute MEDICINE - for me and my women. There are so many benefits to liberating our true selves.

And so I choose to lean into that edge. And I will, over and over.

🔥 For the magical ones who don't feel safe to share their voices.

🔥 And for my Ancestors who were killed for sharing theirs.

Plus, it's not *really* going to kill me to say the word "Dominatrix" in public, now - is it? Even if I am recieved as the Devil. 💁‍♀️

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