How to Powerfully Own Your Medicine - And Why You Should
"It's time, now, to fully honour my devotion, consciously. I don't know what Medicine for my Liberation this will bring, but there's really no other way for me to be."
~Nicole Barton
Last week I was in a Sovereign circle and I was feeling frustrated with myself for not feeling like I was magical (in a very Secret Witch way). As each woman shared, I began to alchemise what was coming up for me in each of their shares, and I began to open to more being revealed.
By the end of the circle it was like my women had unravelled a golden thread (which shows the power of these kind of circles). I suddenly very clearly saw that I was here for a specific purpose; and one I'd been avoiding and resisting. My Medicine became crystal clear.
I shared this reveal in our first circle I led of Creatrix, and declared what had been revealed as my Medicine, but I've not shared it here yet as I wanted to let it sink in.
Having avoided a ritual for Beltane this morning, I finally went down and knelt at my creative altar this afternoon. And I sobbed as I felt - perhaps for the first time, quite so clearly - who I was. And so, it feels time to declare it here, too.
I AM ALCHEMILLA, QUEEN WITCH OF MEDICINAL LIBERATION.
Why this has been hard for me to own is the power in it. My particular Medicinal Liberation involves speaking Truth that activates my women into healing. Truths that aren't always welcome. Truths about them being Witches with gifts that send them into fear, Truths about where they are in deep fear that they can't see, and more Truths - deep Truths that are activating.
In this circle, I saw, I am basically a living homeopathic remedy, here to activate my women with resonant Truth. In the same way a homeopathic remedy might unsuppress parts of you that you didn't know were hidden - and in the same way that might cause you to erupt, or explode in your unsuppression - I may create a similar reaction with my Medicinal Truth. And that can be a lot to hold, if you've not consciously chosen it.
And so, until now, my scared little girl has preferred to keep her own self suppressed, rather than speak her activating Truth - her Medicinal Liberation - in case it possibly creates pain (even when it is activatingly serving). She has kept herself safe by hiding who she is. And, more deeply, that has been *unserving* to those who needed that Medicine. So, it's time to be who I came to be.
The magical thing is (and this made me sob, too) is that I realised, I had actually long ago made an unconscious devotion to homeopathy; back when I was ill with Chronic Fatigue. I remember distinctly declaring "if homeopathy heals me again, I'll devote my life to it." The magical thing was, this was my first real magical devotion - and yes, it was unconscious - but it shows you how devotions really do create us to be who we are.
My work has been centred around homeopathy's medicinal liberation all this time - I read people's energy patterns through this lens, I design my programs around the energetic medicines needed. My language is homeopathy. It plays into everything I create. I just didn't own it as such, for the unconscious reasons here.
And so, it's time, now, to fully honour my devotion, consciously. Today, in my ritual, I felt the Truth of it again - I felt the Truth of me being Alchemilla Queen Witch of Medicinal Liberation, deeply in my cells. And I devoted to it, consciously owning my power - kneeling with an offering for my medicinal witchy ancestors (including my Nan who came in strongly to reveal more - one for another time). In front of my Beltane Fire, I decreed it.
I don't know what ruptures or Medicine for my Liberation this will bring, but it was clear it was time to devote to my Soul Will, regardless. There's really no other way for me to be, having revealed my own Truth.
So, the question is, what's your own Soul Will? Who are you here to be? And are you ready for more to be revealed to you along the path?
PS yes, Witches wear hoodies, too
PPS I thought about just posting this just in my group and it felt out of alignment to hide
PPPS I've just realised the symbol on my thumb nail is magically the symbol for my homeopathic constitution - Phosphorus.
Much love
Nicole x
