What's your Deepest Cut - and how can that become your Medicine?
"Your medicine is not in the tools that you have so desperately sought to fix your wounds, but in the wounds you've so desperately been avoiding."
~ Nicole Barton
Most of my women want to make an impact in the world somehow; they have a deep, burning desire to be medicine. Often with a deep desire to heal the world (and, yet, often feeling victim to their visions, too, as if they aren't possible).
And it makes complete sense, because my women are usually born as Phosphoric constitutions - with deeply beautiful sensitivity (that they learn to shame), deeply activating magic (that they also learn to shame) and they have a burning desire to shine their truthful expression of soul into the world (which they, again, learn to shame).
What they don't see, usually, is that their visions to ripple impact into the world are *deeply* possible - only not by learning more tools and learning more healing techniques as they thought (they've often been there, done that - as I had, too). Instead, when they arrive to this point, they are being called into the next level of work - into the deep work that will help heal their Phosphoric souls of all the layers of shadow in the way of them becoming their soul medicine.
You see, their magic is not in the tools that they so desperately sought, but in the wounds they've so desperately been avoiding by running around in the light healing. In the shadowy, trauma layers of their 'onion' that cloud the world seeing their soul's core magical constitution.
That's where the gold is - and where their medicine is. Only they usually (innocently) don't look there - until they see that that is the real place to look.
Then, they step into the journey with the Remedies of the Wild, which offers them a chance to illuminate, alchemise and heal the shadowy layers that have held them back from being their medicine. The layers of the onion that have been created, innocently, from childhood - that have had them in energetic states of shadow that have distracted them from who they came here to be.
Within those layers, there will be one layer, in particular, that cut them deeply - one particular wound that their Soul agreed to come here to live out.
And it is that wound, when alchemised, which will become medicine for all the other souls that have the same wounding - and need their medicine, too.
It is likely that their own path will incorporate all of the wisdom from the tools they had sought previously - that's the beauty; none of it is wasted. It is all a perfect part of your soul's plan to live its truth.
But without the deep shadow work - which is what we do here with the Remedies of the Wild - that helps us to alchemise our gold and become our medicine - it's likely you'll stay where you've always been; longing to be medicine, whilst also unclear exactly what your medicine is, and doubting your possibility, magic and power, feeling unworthy and suppressing who you really are. These are the typical layers of remedy patterns Phosphoric women need to heal.
The important thing to know is, that becoming your Remedy in the world begins with you beginning to take your own medicine, with you walking and discovering your own path.
And yes, you'll have likely taken a lot of medicine before - though it's unlikely it'll have been the deep energetic medicine of the Remedies of the Wild that has you take a deep look into your shadow wounds so you can discover the healing gold in them. This is different; this is the next breadcrumb.
The good news is that it is in doing our work first, that we discover and become our medicine for the world.
Which, of course, means that in beginning to heal yourself, you're also rippling that healing into the world - by peeling back the layers to become the fullest expression of your soul.
You see - your vision begins with you.
I'll be leading women into healing the first layers in October - if you feel called to learn how to dose yourself with the Remedies of the Wild and become your own Wild Apothecary, the link is in the comments to register interest so you can be first to hear when enrolment is open. ♥️
if you've any questions, send me an email.
Nicole x
