Are you Ready to Become your Unapologetic Magic?
“The more unapologetically magical you can become - the more you shine who you are into the world - the more you will actually reach the hearts you are meant to, and those hearts that will love you.”
~ Nicole Barton
The path of becoming your own remedy in the world - of becoming your unapologetic magic - is not an easy path to walk. It's often one filled with tears, wounds and fear. It is one that takes deep courage and vulnerability. It's one that requires you to continue to face all the places that your heart wants to close and consciously choose to open them instead.
This week, I've known that well. People often assume that my work is done here in this path, because I'm guiding others into who they came here to be. But I'm human, too. I'm a Witch, too.
I came here with the same fears:
💥 of failure
💥 of vulnerability
💥 of feeling helpless
💥 of being a fiery emotional, sensitive mess
💥 of being outcast
And so, along the way, I melt down. I cry, I rage, I tremble. (And, by the way, I'm seeing more and more just how rare it is that this is all so welcome to me: I'm here for these expressions, too, in a world that fears them.)
At times, I would rather become a bin woman than face the truth of who I came here to be (this is a running joke between me and my soul guide, because humour helps - I also happen to think that being a bin woman would be equally as demanding 😅).
That was the case for the last few months - I've found myself facing some deep wounds as I navigate the changes to my business, the ruptures it creates as I step more fully into my unique remedy. And the fear that being your unapologetically truthful magic brings. Mostly, it boils down to:
💥 "What if the real me isn't loved?"💥
And I've come to see that, ironically, the more unapologetically magical you can become - the more you shine who you are into the world - the more you will actually reach the hearts you are meant to, and those hearts that will love you.
And yes, that may mean losing a few along the way, who aren't your people.
In the last few weeks/months I've been told (by people I asked) that I can, at times, be received as the Archetypal Witch - cold, untrustworthy, a victim, a child. And that's been so deeply painful, as I've alchemised it into gold. And what I've seen, as I have, is that this is the *exact* wounding the Witch came here for - the deep fear of being outcast - so she could truly learn to be herself, even when that might mean some people don't feel her heart.
The funny thing is, by those women who are truly 'my Witches', they often tell me that they recieve me as the most deep love, courage and power they've ever felt. I suspect that's because they resonate with my own pain and see the gold possible in truly being themselves, too. (That and, of course, I am also hilarious which always makes me more lovable 😀😅)
The good thing is, the true Phosphoric Witch came here for all of this. Because she has a deep burning fire in her belly to become the full expression of the woman she came to this Earth to be.
Only a true Phosphorus has the fire required to be her Remedy. And she'll need that fire - it will become her guiding light in the darkness, when things become so messy that she just doesn't know if she can do this anymore. When she's feeling raw, and not capable. When she's feeling fear, instead of love.
If she doesn't have that fire, it will become easy to lose faith, to get lost in fear.
But if she has it, it will be her North Star, guiding her - by the sensations in her heart and her belly - back to the knowing that she came here for more - for a life of soul and magic.
I'll be leading women in a path of discovering how to begin to love themselves in all of this fear, in January. The requirement is that you have the Phosphoric fire that will keep you warm when you feel cold along the way.
You'll become a woman who:
🌿learns to love the parts of herself she has outcast - including her beautiful sensitivity and intense emotions - so she can become unapologetically magical
🌿is learning to become her own healer (and maybe a remedy for the world)
🌿is allowing herself to begin to witness her magic
🌿 is beginning to heal the wounds that stop her being her own remedy
🌿is connected into her witchy body, here on earth - and beginning to trust her own wisdom.
If that's what you long for - and you'd like to heal the fears standing in the way of you being your fiery remedy in the world - join us in Invoke Your Wild Apothecary.
You see, the thing is, this might not be an easy path to walk, but when you're Phosphoric, it eventually becomes that is the only option - because loving yourself in your medicine, over time, becomes inevitable. The more you suppress and ignore it, the more it calls to you. That is, if course if you have the true fire. 🔥
I'll be leading a taster of our crucible in January.
Join our Facebook Group for more details.💖
if you've any questions, send me an email.
Nicole x
