“As healers - and as any magical women who feel a call to becoming a healer - we have to learn to do the deepest work of all - and that is of dosing our own remedies and healing our own wounds, before we can dose others.”

~ Nicole Barton

One of the things I've been really witnessing recently is how Secret Witches (sensitive, open-hearted, spiritual and magical women who don't know, or suppress, their healing power) often come to learn magic with their typical wide-eyed Phosphoric enthusiasm - they usually start out really deeply called by all the healing modalities - perhaps reiki, or or aromatherapy, spirituality, or even homeopathy - or others.

“If you choose to soften, open and heal, you can heal and learn to become the most potent, beautifully sensitive, fiery, magical medicine - for yourselves, and the world.”

~ Nicole Barton

Yesterday I was reflecting on how there's a deep paradox to my Phosphoric women. I've been focused a lot recently on sharing their deep sensitivity, and how they feel everything so deeply, which can often have them in closure of their hearts.

“It is always our shadow - our suppression - that takes our life force energy and has us feel low in energy.”

~ Nicole Barton

The Secret Witch's (mine and my women's) deepest fears are often helplessness and failure. These are the ones that usually stop my women from taking aligned-action in the direction of soul. It is often what has them not choose themselves and the deep work. Their fear of losing energy by choosing into aligned-actions is a big one.

"It's often seen as a cultural taboo to be a Magical One, yet there's actually a magic and power and truth in healing ourselves. Our deep sensitivity, our magic, our capacity to heal and be medicine is a gift."

~ Nicole Barton

Since my recent shamanic healing I've been consciously working with my Ancestors a little bit more, as they had come to the healing with a lot of anger about not feeling "enough" - which makes a lot of sense, given they were Witches, likely burned at the stake.

"The real measure of whether you're ready for the path of soul is whether you're willing to keep choosing to open to love through the triggering to find the deep gold in the Truth."

~ Nicole Barton

One of the things that the Secret Witch (who doesn't know her own magic and power) struggles with is speaking her Truth and expressing what's in her heart. Often that will leave her suppressing parts of

"Your medicine is not in the tools that you have so desperately sought to fix your wounds, but in the wounds you've so desperately been avoiding."

~ Nicole Barton

Most of my women want to make an impact in the world somehow; they have a deep, burning desire to be medicine. Often with a deep desire to heal the world (and, yet, often feeling victim to their visions, too, as if they aren't possible).

"Anything, or anyone, that does not bring you alive is too small for you.”

~ David Whyte

I witness over and over again recently how my women often think that living from soul is something seperate from life. And I'd have once felt that too.

"Whilst there's shame and fear of being our magic as a medicinal one, you can also come to learn that there's a deep gift in your own deep sensitivity - that the world needs."

~ Nicole Barton

My heart always cracks wide open to my women who feel that their sensitivity and vulnerability is shameful. Especially when they are magical ones who have shut out their magic because of this shame.

“A Secret Witch isn’t a woman just playing with potions. She’s a woman who doesn’t yet know her power to create whatever she opens her heart to.”

~ Nicole Barton

There is no "push" or "force" in this journey; it is actually one of magical, energetic manifestation. And equally, that doesn't mean sitting back and doing nothing either, as most spiritual paths teach.

"To return to who you are, via the Remedies of the Wild, you'll need to be prepared to open your heart and mind wider than what is "known" and choose fully into the unknown - the unmeasurable art of magic."

~ Nicole Barton

One thing that has become apparent to me is that my women often have a love/hate relationship with magic.

"Whatever we choose, in the midst of our MfL, will have a deeper impact. And that's why the deepest work is to stay impeccable in our devotion to soul."

~ Nicole Barton

The journey to Soul isn't an easy one. I say this, time and time again, and still, many times my women don't believe me. And when it gets tough, I often have clients project: "this is so easy for you".

“It is from the tender, powerful and brave place of self love, that we can start to live more fully.”

~ Brigit Anna McNeil

Since my deeper devotion to my own medicine - channelling the Remedies of the Wild - I'm slowly (which is a pace I have to consciously choose, given my Secret Witch's temptation to rush) having more and more revealed…

“It is from the tender, powerful and brave place of self love, that we can start to live more fully.”

~ Brigit Anna McNeil

Recently I led my Feminine Mystery circle in a way that deeply honoured my Feminine cycle, by ceremonially wearing my sacred blood on my forehead.

"I'm seeing how my channelling of the remedies is becoming stronger and stronger. I am increasingly triggering and activating those around me, deeper and deeper, with the energetic medicine they need to be healed, just through my being."

~ Nicole Barton

In the last few weeks I've come to see really clearly how my gift is to be a channel for the Remedies of the Wild.

“Where there is hope there is possibility. Where there is possibility, there is Magic; Where there is Magic there is endless possibility.”

~ Beth Thompson

If there's one thing I've learned, as I've journeyed more deeply into soul, it's that we simply can't do this work from our heads.

From our heads, we desire logic and a step by step plan of how to get there. From our heads, we create from burden and burn out. From our heads, we allow fear to make the choices - even when we think it isn't.

“Tell the truth about your wound, and then you will get a truthful picture of the remedy to apply to it. Don’t pack whatever is easiest or most available into the emptiness. Hold out for the right medicine. You will recognize it because it makes your life stronger rather than weaker.”

~ Clarissa Pinkola Estés

It can be so tempting to plaster over our wounds. I have been there, perhaps more times than I can count, whether it was by directly numbing my emotions, when I was living out of alignment in my old relationship…

"The very essence of the Feminine is LOVE and TRUTH - not aggressive rebellion, or armouring by playing dress up as a Goddess."

~ Nicole Barton

One of the objections I notice in some women drawn to Invoke Your Feminine Mystery is that they've previously felt they've already done a lot of work with Feminine embodiment before.

In fact, often, whilst many of my women come to me dismissing their Feminine body and her signals entirely and not feeling feminine at all, I notice these particular women can often have reached a point where they've done so much work on themselves…

"Every woman who heals herself helps heal all the women who came before her and all those who will come after.”

~ Dr Christiane Northrup

The Feminine calls to women in various Mysterious ways - often, ways that don’t resemble a call to the Feminine at all. You see, the Feminine, on initial glance, feels to be a glamorous path full of roses, beauty, magic, love and softness - and she is in her embodied fullness; but her initial call - well, that’s very different.

Often, my women don’t actually know they’re being called by the Feminine, let alone which archetype is calling them specifically. And so, recently, I have been exploring the various magical, Mysterious Feminine Archetypes of the Witch - and how they might each call to us during the Feminine lifecycle - in a mini series of short videos.

“Nature loves courage. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it's a feather bed.”

~Terrance McKenna

Stress, fear, doubt and shame were always big things for my Secret Witch, who didn't know her own power. I'd feel frequently overwhelmed, live in fear, and often not see my needs, let alone meet them, leaving me burning out. I often felt trapped in a mundane life, always hoping that one day I'd fix myself.