“Knowing what your soft edge is, is a bit like creating your own personal safe word.”

~ Nicole Barton

CHOOSING TO BE THE REAL, VULNERABLE 'YOU' IS EDGY - WHAT'S YOUR SAFEWORD?

I leaned into another kinky edge recently with sharing my voice. And something I've come to see over the years is that, when we do, MAGIC is created.

I was feeling in victim to a surge of what felt like Dominatrix energy recently - which felt to leave me only in the energetic of Submissive (if you missed my last post about this, read it: I'm talking *energetics* here, not being an actual sexy Submissive, though that's always a place you can play with the dynamic ).

The Wildness is no place for the faint-hearted, so come, but bring all your might with you. And maybe, just maybe, you will get a chance to taste your freedom."

~ Alison Napp

I LIED - GOOD GIRL'S GOTTA BURN

Let's talk about truthful self-expression.

My audience is apprehensive recently. I can feel it.

Confusion is in the air.

Where has Nicole the Pastel Swan gone? (Yes, that was an actual description reflected in my soul essence a few years ago, which triggered the shit out of me because - well, I'm no pink swan at home; not to those with whom it feels safe for me to *fully* express my full intensity, anyway).

You aren't truly *integrating* unless you're taking the aligned-actions to do the deep, dark work to consciously and intentionally look at ALL the shadow (and gold) there is to be seen and reclaimed in your wounds.

~ Nicole Barton

ARE YOU REALLY "INTEGRATING"?!

I have lost count of the times I hear women saying they are "integrating" - when largely (whilst they have well-meaning intentions), they are often floating around after their healing waiting for the integration to happen by itself.

Anacardium is an energy of *identity*. She feels torn between the Angel on one shoulder and the Devil on the other. The Good Girl and the Rebel. The Submissive and the Dominatrix. And all are shadow polarity "personalities" that a Secret Witch knows well.

~ Nicole Barton

🖤🤍DOMINATRIX VS SUBMISSIVE: WHICH ARE YOU?! 🖤🤍

Soul is calling me, recently (amidst my pleas to go gently - oh God, please!😆 ) to places I never honestly EVER thought I'd be called to.

To the depths of hell and back - it feels. 🖤

Becoming a shaman or a Medicine Woman isn't a case of logically learning magic and then churning it out as a commercialised thing. It is a process of deep initiation, which takes time, space, devotion, and a willingness to be in the mystery of the Feminine. (And if I'm totally honest, blood, sweat and tears)

~ Nicole Barton

IS YOUR UNWORTHINESS HAVING YOU TRYING TO DOSE MEDICINE BEFORE YOU'VE *BECOME* AN EMBODIED SHAMAN?

Something I've noticed recently in magical ones is the tendency to want to skip over the part where we *become* our remedy.

The biggest lesson I learned from this was NO ONE was coming to save me - and that I was going to have to choose to heal myself. And I'm still spiralling into deeper and deeper lessons of this, because it's my lifetimes's work as a Medicine Woman (whose very shadow and gold is trusting herself).

~ Nicole Barton

NO ONE IS COMING TO SAVE YOU...

Medicine Woman first knocked on my door when I was the tender young age of 10. I had suffered grief and trauma on the run up for about 5 years, and it was catching up with me - I was so burned out that one day I just woke up, unable to walk, barely able to move and just numb. I remember being wheeled around on an office chair as a kind of makeshift wheelchair.

How are we being called to shine our Medicine Woman's healing light into the world?

Happy Winter Solstice, my loves. 🔥🌙✨

The next few days offers a powerful portal of both Yule and New Moon. And so, as we didn't gather in circle this week as planned, my Medicine Woman wants to share a ritual for you as an invitation to enjoy in your own time.

We are celebrating the longest night, and the depths of the darkness returning to light (and magically #darkness was our theme in this group this month) whilst also harnessing the New Moon in Capricorn.

How are we being called to shine our Medicine Woman's healing light into the world?

Happy Winter Solstice, my loves. 🔥🌙✨

The next few days offers a powerful portal of both Yule and New Moon. And so, as we didn't gather in circle this week as planned, my Medicine Woman wants to share a ritual for you as an invitation to enjoy in your own time.

We are celebrating the longest night, and the depths of the darkness returning to light (and magically #darkness was our theme in this group this month) whilst also harnessing the New Moon in Capricorn.

“There's a level of deep devotion required to navigate the ups and downs of becoming the Self-Healer and Magical Guide you truly came here to be.”

~ Nicole Barton

I have been embodying and teaching 'healing' for over a decade (woah, as I share that my Archetypal Luna remedy - my inner magical wise woman - is like "yes, I'm being owned! 🔥"). You see, healing is something I've lived and breathed the lessons of. It's something, as I often say, that I've "lived into" - over my whole lifetime, actually - and it's been the place where I've had my deepest wounds (which also means as I've alchemised it, it has become my medicine for others).

“True Self-Healing is being willing to go into our wounds - into the fire - and courageously look them in the eyes, and begin to love those pieces of ourselves back to wholeness”

~ Nicole Barton

ABANDONMENT AND SCARCITY ALCHEMY IN MOTION

The path of reclaiming your unapologetic magic is not easy to walk. I've said it over and over again (I'm pretty sure everyone still thinks I'm joking 😁 likely because the work they've done before is 'Woo Lite' - see my earlier post on this).

“True Self-Healing is being willing to go into our wounds - into the fire - and courageously look them in the eyes, and begin to love those pieces of ourselves back to wholeness”

~ Nicole Barton

ABANDONMENT AND SCARCITY ALCHEMY IN MOTION

The path of reclaiming your unapologetic magic is not easy to walk. I've said it over and over again (I'm pretty sure everyone still thinks I'm joking 😁 likely because the work they've done before is 'Woo Lite' - see my earlier post on this).

“One of the most calming and powerful actions you can do to intervene in a stormy world is to stand up and show your soul. Struggling souls catch light from other souls who are fully lit and willing to show it.”

~ Clarissa Pinkola

Secretly magical healers: let's talk REAL for a moment as to why searching logically for your "niche" isn't as important as you DISCOVERING, HEALING and BECOMING your own remedy for others.

“This isn't a journey for everyone. It takes deep courage and a willingness to go into the darkness and see what wants to be loved”

~ Nicole Barton

LOVE OR DESTRUCTION.

When I first came to shadow work, I would often use it as a tool to beat myself up with for all the ways I was 'sabotaging' my soul (my magical wand became a 'beaty' stick! )

“The woman who is here to work with her 'inner witch' is here to experience the darkness of being a human fully in form, and she's here to play there, making gold from it - because she's a manifestor here on earth.”

~ Nicole Barton

FOR THE MAGICAL WOMEN WHO SUPPRESS THEMSELVES

There's an absolute rage bubbling from an experience I created yesterday, and I can feel a big angry NO in my belly to our humanness being denied. I witness within myself that more fire is wanting to be expressed…

“Fire, as an Archetypal Apothecary Remedy, is one of transformation, of burning things down so that they can be rebirthed as their real, true, full potency”

~ Nicole Barton

And only where the forest fires have sped, Scorching relentlessly the cool north lands, A sweet wild flower lifts its purple head, And, like some gentle spirit sorrow-fed, It hides the scars with almost human hands.

“If she's not healed her Witch Wound (that deep seated fear of being her full self-expression), then no matter how hard she trains in magical modalities, it's unlikely that she will ever have the courage to bring that medicine to the world fully and completely.”

~ Nicole Barton

Oh my god has my Secret Witch been having meltdowns this week over where my business is going.

“ The more unapologetically magical you can become - the more you shine who you are into the world - the more you will actually reach the hearts you are meant to, and those hearts that will love you.”

~ Nicole Barton

The path of becoming your own remedy in the world - of becoming your unapologetic magic - is not an easy path to walk. It's often one filled with tears, wounds and fear. It is one that takes deep courage and vulnerability. It's one that requires you to continue to face all the places that your heart wants to close and consciously choose to open them instead.

“If all Phosphoric Witches learned that their gifts were magical, needed and loved - if they learned they could harness their deep gifts of sensitivity and emotion powerfully, and if they learned that they weren't really that 'weird' - then they would learn to welcome all the parts of themselves that they've previously outcast, become their unique, magnificent, magical remedy for themselves, firstly - but also for the world..”

~ Nicole Barton

Have you been told that you "have magical gifts" (but you're a little bit scared of them)?

“As healers - and as any magical women who feel a call to becoming a healer - we have to learn to do the deepest work of all - and that is of dosing our own remedies and healing our own wounds, before we can dose others.”

~ Nicole Barton

One of the things I've been really witnessing recently is how Secret Witches (sensitive, open-hearted, spiritual and magical women who don't know, or suppress, their healing power) often come to learn magic with their typical wide-eyed Phosphoric enthusiasm - they usually start out really deeply called by all the healing modalities - perhaps reiki, or or aromatherapy, spirituality, or even homeopathy - or others.

“If you choose to soften, open and heal, you can heal and learn to become the most potent, beautifully sensitive, fiery, magical medicine - for yourselves, and the world.”

~ Nicole Barton

Yesterday I was reflecting on how there's a deep paradox to my Phosphoric women. I've been focused a lot recently on sharing their deep sensitivity, and how they feel everything so deeply, which can often have them in closure of their hearts.